casual emotional neurotypical intimacy

old friend don't forgetme

let's go back to your house and play skate3 on your single-child no siblingtv

that's really the problem withme nothing has the same simplicity

you've got to ask too many questions can't remember to say "what about you?"

i'd probably fly 10,000 miles just tosee if there's a chance someone could holdme

really that's not what i want to do i want to invest in you no more index fund it's difficult though let me explain

i really do feel so much damn empathy i cry everytime i watch the tv i just can't shake the complexity

i can't care anymore i'm tired yousee to live in a world not designed tobe

forget it and just kissme maybe it'll make me feel like i'm not some specialty some thing designed to be on display no flash photography

i'm gonna miss my flight too carrying too many bags for us i'm forgetting your name it's not helpful i'd rather find something we have in common

trying not to make the conversation all about me i've got scripts in my head and they don't solve anything i don't like skipping the boarding it's important to me i'm just really not any good at it and it's killing me

and i really always need reminding that i'm not fucking everything up but here's the thing i probably am and i mightbe completely oblivious you need tosee i'm trying so desperately

to be whatever you might want me but really i should just 'be myself' you've forgotten what you can't know if i did that god forbid anyone should even speak to me and it's not like anyone tries to reassure this fact that myself is something worth showing no i'm most liked quite randomly i can't find the thing that sticks you to me

share what you will with me i won't ask properly because i pay in advance you forget that i always give you a chance i thought that was the question i missed but i have to explicitly say everything because i'm not you and you're not me and my brain is a goddamn mystery

i'm shit at small talk and i don't know how to show that i care about people i try but i'm really quite a miss at offering anything past a daily conversation i'm terrified of gifts they really stress me i'd do whatever you need but you really gotta ask me it's not something i plan ahead on the daily i'm not you and you're not me so i don't expect any more from you i'm not the type to invite myself along can't flirt with a touch that's too much for me and it's hard to gauge what words to say to brighten a day i'm bad at caring your way i show it by listening listening oh listening so i'll back you up and i'll spend way too much time on you i'll learn what makes you tick and probably try to help with everything you do i'll speak your language if it lets me know more about you i'll tell you that i'm thinking of you and make a stupid joke that reminds you of how we're still kids it's not that deep please remove the complexity

did i do it wrong let me rethink how i said that and analyze that conversation your reactions what was that face do you hate me no wait i'm just remembering wrong i'm likable that's what everyone tells me when friday rolls around you'll see i left early i can't take the noise it dysregulates me but now they won't take me back i wasn't laughing enough i'm not a great friend a hang out for me is something more chill but it's not something for the groups with too much energy i prefer when it's just us three

you're my best friend until you don't want to be it's hard for me to give what i never learned naturally

i'm at the edge of normalcy i can know how to act but forget how to be

i'd rather give up do what you want with me maybe it'll make me happy how do you touch someone you can't care to see?

and am I asking you or are you asking me?